少年维特之烦恼(英文版)-第25章

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infers　that　all　is　darkness　and　confusion　，　where　we　have　nothing　but
uncertainty。〃

　　His　appearance　at　length　became　quite　altered　by　the　effect　of　his
melancholy　thoughts　；　and　his　resolution　was　now　finally　and　irrevocably
taken　，　of　which　the　following　ambiguous　letter，　which　he　addressed
to　his　friend　，　may　appear　to　afford　some　proof。

　　DECEMBER　2O。　I　am　grateful　to　your　love　，　Wilhelm，　for　having　repeated
your　advice　so　seasonably。　Yes，　you　are　right：　it　is　undoubtedly　better
that　I　should　depart。　But　I　do　not　entirely　approve　your　scheme　of　returning
at　once　to　your　neighbourhood　；　at　least　，　I　should　Iike　to　make　a　little
excursion　on　the　way，　particularly　as　we　may　now　expect　a　continued　frost，
and　consequently　good　roads。　I　am　much　pleased　with　your　intention　of
ing　to　fetch　me；　only　delay　your　journey　for　a　fortnight，　and　wait
for　another　letter　from　me。　One　should　gather　nothing　before　it　is　ripe，
and　a　fortnight　sooner　or　later　makes　a　great　difference。　Entreat　my　mother
to　pray　for　her　son　，　and　tell　her　I　beg　her　pardon　for　all　the　unhappiness
I　have　occasioned　her。　It　has　ever　been　my　fate　to　give　pain　to　those
whose　happiness　I　should　have　promoted。　Adieu　，　my　dearest　friend。　May
every　blessing　of　Heaven　attend　you　！　Farewell。

　　We　find　it　difficult　to　express　the　emotions　with　which　Charlotte's
soul　was　agitated　during　the　whole　of　this　time　，　whether　in　relation
to　her　husband　or　to　her　unfortunate　friend　；　although　we　are　enabled，
by　our　knowledge　of　her　character　，　to　understand　their　nature。

　　It　is　certain　that　she　had　formed　a　determination　，　by　every　means
in　her　power　to　keep　Werther　at　a　distance；　and，　if　she　hesitated　in
her　decision，　it　was　from　a　sincere　feeling　of　friendly　pity　，　knowing
how　much　it　would　cost　him，　indeed　，　that　he　would　find　it　almost　impossible
to　ply　with　her　wishes。　But　various　causes　now　urged　her　to　be　firm。
Her　hushand　preserved　a　strict　silence　about　the　whole　matter　；　and　she
never　made　it　a　subject　of　conversation　，　feeling　bound　to　prove　to　him
by　her　conduct　that　her　sentiments　agreed　with　his。

　　The　same　day，　which　was　the　Sunday　before　Christmas，　after　Werther
had　written　the　last…mentioned　letter　to　his　friend　，　he　came　in　the
evening　to　Charlotte's　house，　and　found　her　alone。　She　was　busy　preparing
some　little　gifts　for　her　brothers　and　sisters，　which　were　to　be　distributed
to　them　on　Christmas　Day。　He　began　talking　of　the　delight　of　the　children，
and　of　that　age　when　the　sudden　appearance　of　the　Christmas…tree，　decorated
with　fruit　and　sweetmeats　，　and　lighted　up　with　wax　candles，　causes
such　transports　of　joy。　〃You　shall　have　a　gift　too，　if　you　behave　well
，〃　said　Charlotte　，　hiding　her　embarrassment　under　sweet　smile。　〃And
what　do　you　call　behaving　well？　What　should　I　do　，　what　can　I　do，　my
dear　Charlotte？〃　said　he。　〃Thursday　night，〃　she　answered，　〃is　Christmas
Eve。　The　children　are　all　to　be　here，　and　my　father　too：　there　is　a
present　for　each；　do　you　e　likewise　，　but　do　not　e　before　that
time。〃　Werther　started。　〃I　desire　you　will　not：　it　must　be　so，〃　she
continued。　〃I　ask　it　of　you　as　a　favour　，　for　my　own　peace　and　tranquillity。
We　cannot　go　on　in　this　manner　any　longer。〃　He　turned　away　his　face　walked
hastily　up　and　down　the　room，　muttering　indistinctly　，　〃We　cannot　go
on　in　this　manner　any　longer！〃　Charlotte　，　seeing　the　violent　agitation
into　which　these　words　had　thrown　him　，　endeavoured　to　divert　his　thoughts
by　different　questions，　but　in　vain。　〃No　，　Charlotte！〃　he　exclaimed
；　〃I　will　never　see　you　any　more　！〃　〃And　why　so　？〃　she　answered。　〃We
may　——　we　must　see　each　other　again　；　only　let　it　be　with　more　discretion。
Oh！　why　were　you　born　with　that　excessive，　that　ungovernable　passion
for　everything　that　is　dear　to　you？〃　Then，　taking　his　hand，　she　said，
〃I　entreat　of　you　to　be　more　calm　：　your　talents　，　your　understanding，
your　genius　，　will　furnish　you　with　a　thousand　resources。　Be　a　man　，
and　conquer　an　unhappy　attachment　toward　a　creature　who　can　do　nothing
but　pity　you。〃　He　bit　his　lips，　and　looked　at　her　with　a　gloomy　countenance。
She　continued　to　hold　his　hand。　〃Grant　me　but　a　moment's　patience　，　Werther，
〃　she　said。　〃Do　you　not　see　that　you　are　deceiving　yourself　，　that　you
are　seeking　your　own　destruction？　Why　must　you　love　me　，　me　only，　who
belong　to　another　？　I　fear　，　I　much　fear，　that　it　is　only　the　impossibility
of　possessing　me　which　makes　your　desire　for　me　so　strong。〃　He　drew　back
his　hand，　whilst　he　surveyed　her　with　a　wild　and　angry　look。　〃'Tis　well！
〃　he　exclaimed，　〃'tis　very　well！　Did　not　Albert　furnish　you　with　this
reflection？　It　is　profound　，　a　very　profound　remark。〃　〃A　reflection
that　any　one　might　easily　make，〃　she　answered；　〃and　is　there　not　a　woman
in　the　whole　world　who　is　at　liberty，　and　has　the　power　to　make　you　happy？
Conquer　yourself：　look　for　such　a　being，　and　believe　me　when　I　say　that
you　will　certainly　find　her。　I　have　long　felt　for　you　，　and　for　us　all
：　you　have　confined　yourself　too　long　within　the　limits　of　too　narrow
a　circle。　Conquer　yourself；　make　an　effort　：　a　short　journey　will　be
of　service　to　you。　Seek　and　find　an　object　worthy　of　your　love；　then
return　hither　，　and　let　us　enjoy　together　all　the　happiness　of　the　most
perfect　friendship。〃

　　〃This　speech，〃　replied　Werther　with　a　cold　smile　，　〃this　speech
should　be　printed　，　for　the　benefit　of　all　teachers。　My　dear　Charlotte，
allow　me　but　a　short　time　longer，　and　all　will　be　well。〃　〃But　however，
Werther　，〃　she　added　，　〃do　not　e　again　before　Christmas。〃　He　was
about　to　make　some　answer　，　when　Albert　came　in。　They　saluted　each　other
coldly，　and　with　mutual　embarrassment　paced　up　and　down　the　room。　Werther
made　some　mon　remarks；　Albert　did　the　same，　and　their　conversation
soon　dropped。　Albert　asked　his　wife　about　some　household　matters；　and，
finding　that　his　missions　were　not　executed，　he　used　some　expressions
which　，　to　Werther's　ear　，　savoured　of　extreme　harshness。　He　wished
to　go　，　but　had　not　power　to　move；　and　in　this　situation　he　remained
till　eight　o'clock，　his　uneasiness　and　discontent　continually　increasing。
At　length　the　cloth　was　laid　for　supper　，　and　he　took　up　his　hat　and
stick。　Albert　invited　him　to　remain　；　but　Werther，　fancying　that　he
was　merely　paying　a　formal　pliment　，　thanked　him　coldly　，　amd　left
the　house。

　　Werther　returned　home　，　took　the　candle　from　his　servant　，　and　retired
to　his　room　alone。　He　talked　for　some　time　with　great　earnestness　to　himself，
wept　aloud，　walked　in　a　state　of　great　excitement　through　his　chamber
；　till　at　length　，　without　undressing　，　he　threw　himself　on　the　bed，
where　he　was　found　by　his　servant　at　eleven　o'clock　，　when　the　latter
ventured　to　enter　the　room，　and　take　off　his　boots。　Werther　did　not　prevent
him　，　but　forbade　him　to　e　in　the　morning　till　he　should　ring。

　　On　Monday　morning　，　the　21st　of　December　，　he　wrote　to　Charlotte
the　following　letter，　which　was　found，　sealed　，　on　his　bureau　after
his　death　，　and　was　given　to　her。　I　shall　insert　it　in　fragments　；　as
it　appears，　from　several　circumstances　，　to　have　been　written　in　that
manner。

　　〃It　is　all　over　，　Charlotte：　I　am　resolved　to　die　！　I　make　this
declaration　deliberately　and　coolly　，　without　any　romantic　passion　，
on　this　morning　of　the　day　when　I　am　to　see　you　for　the　last　time。　At
the　moment　you　read　these　lines　，　O　best　of　women，　the　cold　grave　will
hold　the　inanimate　remains　of　that　restless　and　unhappy　being　who　，　in
the　last　moments　of　his　existence　，　knew　no　pleasure　so　great　as　that
of　conversing　with　you！　I　have　passed　a　dreadful　night　or　rather　，　let
me　say，　a　propitious　one　；　for　it　has　given　me　resolution　，　it　has
fixed　my　purpose。　I　am　resolved　to　die。　When　I　tore　myself　from　you　yesterday，
my　senses　were　in　tumult　and　disorder　；　my　heart　was　oppressed　，　hope
and　pleasure　had　fled　from　me　for　ever，　and　a　petrifying　cold　had　seized
my　wretched　being。　I　could　scarcely　reach　my　room。　I　threw　myself　on　my
knees　；　and　Heaven　，　fo